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Stop asking me if I am doing okay. When you ask me.. it makes me think of all the reasons why I am not doing okay. Here. I will list them for you..

1. I have no money
2. No one seems to need my services in Boston
3. I can't even buy proper art supplies anymore
4. The boy I love, and that loves me can't figure out what the hell to do
5. He wants me to come home
6. I've never wanted to be with anyone so badly in my life
7. I hate my apartment and the Latvians
8. I am freezing my ass off
9. If I could get out of my lease easily I would leave in 2 seconds
10. Yes, I do want to go home for a boy... but I also want to go home because I have a job there and I don't have to stress about where my food is going to come from
11. Did I mention my school costs entirely too much for the amount of 'learning' I am doing
12. I'm emo, and I over analyze everything
13. No one I am going to meet here is going to sweep me off my feet
14. Maybe my old punk rock attitude has gotten the best of me
15. Again, no money = no booze.... and I love my booze
16. I want to just be me
17. Being successful isn't automatically going to make me happy
18. All I want is to be happy
19. My friend is dead
20. When I am alone for long periods of time I think about how we could all die tomorrow
21. I miss my life being somewhat stable
22. I miss being okay, and comfortable
23. I miss sitting on the couch and watching tv sometimes
24. I just miss him