to do

I should read more. I feel lost in a sea of words that I don't understand sometimes. I think I used to be smart.. up to date on all the art jargon. Now I am at a stand still. I know what I know.. but I don't as much as I used to know, and I don't know what is going on right this very second. Maybe the world is too big for me, or maybe I let myself fall behind in the past few years... I've forgotten that I can't just be a good painter.. I also have to be a good bullshitter. I need to relearn. Damn.